well. im still alive. sorry. i just… man i havent been feeling steven universe lately at all. i love the show, sure, but getting on this tumblr, sitting down to write fics for it… its a hassle. im not saying this blog is dead, but fuck guys, how can i say its alive? ive been gone for over a year. or something now. i cant stand to look at my fics because i feel horrible for disappearing for so long, or its so far from cann its not funny, or… or i think about all the hate in the fandom and i just??? i cant do it??? im not dead, but… but im not saying this blog is alive either. maybe ill get back into this stuff eventually, maybe, but for now, i cant stand to look at the stuff. i havent read a su fic in ages, or even actively looked for art. @cancottondy is my personal, feel free to check that out and message me there, but. dont ask for stuff related to this blog. its probably not gonna come.